coincidence or fate!
Today is actually two months since I wrote here in my blog! What a coincidence!!!! It's so surprising how the past 3 months out of work has been a whirlwind for me. So many changes, big and small, has been happening.
Id want to share how life surprises me these days and Im baffled whether this is just sheer coincidence or fate controlling me. It has been good. Altho I'm penniless without work now, Im so much happier these days. Why is it when u have less money u are happier and vice versa? Paradox of life!
I would want to make a distinction between coincidence and fate. Coincidence is two events happening in the same instance. Just like now, Im writing my blog, EXACTLY, one month since I wrote my last entry. IT was a coincidence.
However, fate is something I experienced last Aug 15 2008. It is a day to remember...INDEED. I have never imagined what it will bring me. This is fate. Fate is something that unfolds right in ur face where events from the past suddenly become meaningful and worth remembering. I cant help but daydream for the last 3 months how things from 10 yrs ago will be all coming back to me. It was like fitting in the puzzles and gives me a dazed stare today. Im sure everyone experiences this once in a while. You just cant believe it. Therefore, miracles do happen without us expecting it.
I met Javi (Mr. Javier Gamboa) that rainy Friday night in Shanghai. On my way, I thought, I wanted to pass by the church in Chongqing Road coz it was the Feast of the Assumption of Mary. However, I didnt want to be late so I didnt pass by anymore. It was pouring rain so it's quite difficult to walk around Shanghai that nightI hurried to the restaurant which was always fully booked. Moreso, it was a friday weekend so it was a real hassle getting a seat. I was early and secured a seat for the two of us. Little did I know I'd be waiting more than 1.5hrs for him to arrive!!! :P I could have let someone use our table and the resto gets extra profit for it. What the heck! WE occupied the seat until 10pm! hahaha!
I'm excited to meet him coz Ive never seen him for the last 10 yrs since he was my Chemistry professor. HE is Spanish. This was enough reason for me to go through the hassle of traveling downtown to meet him since I planned to be in Spain for my MBA. I wanted to see and know more about Spain and how Im going to prepare for my next plan in life! I had a great night talking to him and knowing more of him rather than be my 'boring' professor back in those days. I told him I'll keep in touch with him for the fact Id be visiting my sis in Singapore this coming December. All's well that ends well...so I thought!
3 days after I received a message from Facebook as a follow up. He sent me a link of a Spanish poet, Antonio Machado, entitled, "Last night as I was sleeping"
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that a spring was breaking
out in my heart.
I said: Along which secret aqueduct,
Oh water, are you coming to me,
water of a new life
that I have never drunk?
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that a fiery sun was giving
light inside my heart.
It was fiery because I felt
warmth as from a hearth,
and sun because it gave light
and brought tears to my eyes.
Last night, as I slept,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that it was God I had
here inside my heart.
This is the first time someone sent me a deep and heartfelt poem which can be interpreted in so many ways. Then, fate started to flash back into my memory. What is happening here?!?!?!?!?!!? I recalled that Friday night and realized how this poem had to be sent to me. Then, I concluded it was FATE! We met on my last weekend in Shanghai which could not have happened if he was not Spanish! :P Considering how impatient I am and very particular with keeping time, I waited for him for 1.5hrs. This is a FEAT! It was meant to happen. I had to wait so that I would no longer wait for a guy that was prepared for me. What's 1.5hrs anyway if you knew he will be ur future bf! :P
Everything happened so fast. IT was as if we knew each other since 10 yrs ago and we are simply catching up with our stories and people we both knew! This is a happy moment in my life.
Sometimes we think career, work, study, glory are all important and will make one happy but I realized the true meaning that Love conquers all. I abandoned my backpack plan and MBA plan which I thought would guarantee me peace of mind and happiness. I wouldnt know now if it will. However, Im certain that Im not worried being jobless, penniless and traveless (if there is such a word). What I know, someone loves me so much that all these doesnt bother him at all. On top of which, I cannot cook, disorganized like rampaging gorilla in a room, driving people nuts and crazy with the thoughts that I have which are out of this world. What a FATEFUL day? Im so much happy it had to come now.
Id want to share how life surprises me these days and Im baffled whether this is just sheer coincidence or fate controlling me. It has been good. Altho I'm penniless without work now, Im so much happier these days. Why is it when u have less money u are happier and vice versa? Paradox of life!
I would want to make a distinction between coincidence and fate. Coincidence is two events happening in the same instance. Just like now, Im writing my blog, EXACTLY, one month since I wrote my last entry. IT was a coincidence.
However, fate is something I experienced last Aug 15 2008. It is a day to remember...INDEED. I have never imagined what it will bring me. This is fate. Fate is something that unfolds right in ur face where events from the past suddenly become meaningful and worth remembering. I cant help but daydream for the last 3 months how things from 10 yrs ago will be all coming back to me. It was like fitting in the puzzles and gives me a dazed stare today. Im sure everyone experiences this once in a while. You just cant believe it. Therefore, miracles do happen without us expecting it.
I met Javi (Mr. Javier Gamboa) that rainy Friday night in Shanghai. On my way, I thought, I wanted to pass by the church in Chongqing Road coz it was the Feast of the Assumption of Mary. However, I didnt want to be late so I didnt pass by anymore. It was pouring rain so it's quite difficult to walk around Shanghai that nightI hurried to the restaurant which was always fully booked. Moreso, it was a friday weekend so it was a real hassle getting a seat. I was early and secured a seat for the two of us. Little did I know I'd be waiting more than 1.5hrs for him to arrive!!! :P I could have let someone use our table and the resto gets extra profit for it. What the heck! WE occupied the seat until 10pm! hahaha!
I'm excited to meet him coz Ive never seen him for the last 10 yrs since he was my Chemistry professor. HE is Spanish. This was enough reason for me to go through the hassle of traveling downtown to meet him since I planned to be in Spain for my MBA. I wanted to see and know more about Spain and how Im going to prepare for my next plan in life! I had a great night talking to him and knowing more of him rather than be my 'boring' professor back in those days. I told him I'll keep in touch with him for the fact Id be visiting my sis in Singapore this coming December. All's well that ends well...so I thought!
3 days after I received a message from Facebook as a follow up. He sent me a link of a Spanish poet, Antonio Machado, entitled, "Last night as I was sleeping"
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that a spring was breaking
out in my heart.
I said: Along which secret aqueduct,
Oh water, are you coming to me,
water of a new life
that I have never drunk?
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.
Last night, as I was sleeping,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that a fiery sun was giving
light inside my heart.
It was fiery because I felt
warmth as from a hearth,
and sun because it gave light
and brought tears to my eyes.
Last night, as I slept,
I dreamt -- marvelous error!—
that it was God I had
here inside my heart.
This is the first time someone sent me a deep and heartfelt poem which can be interpreted in so many ways. Then, fate started to flash back into my memory. What is happening here?!?!?!?!?!!? I recalled that Friday night and realized how this poem had to be sent to me. Then, I concluded it was FATE! We met on my last weekend in Shanghai which could not have happened if he was not Spanish! :P Considering how impatient I am and very particular with keeping time, I waited for him for 1.5hrs. This is a FEAT! It was meant to happen. I had to wait so that I would no longer wait for a guy that was prepared for me. What's 1.5hrs anyway if you knew he will be ur future bf! :P
Everything happened so fast. IT was as if we knew each other since 10 yrs ago and we are simply catching up with our stories and people we both knew! This is a happy moment in my life.
Sometimes we think career, work, study, glory are all important and will make one happy but I realized the true meaning that Love conquers all. I abandoned my backpack plan and MBA plan which I thought would guarantee me peace of mind and happiness. I wouldnt know now if it will. However, Im certain that Im not worried being jobless, penniless and traveless (if there is such a word). What I know, someone loves me so much that all these doesnt bother him at all. On top of which, I cannot cook, disorganized like rampaging gorilla in a room, driving people nuts and crazy with the thoughts that I have which are out of this world. What a FATEFUL day? Im so much happy it had to come now.
posted by marieand at 10/21/2008 12:37:00 PM
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